“A new year is here. So what? What’s the big deal?” thought Suman. He has seen the sun rise on many a new year’s, but things hadn’t changed in Mumbaipur and in his small 1BHK home. What a morose person, you would think. But Suman was a little despondent, after all his friends and family had managed to get into his head and instill this machine that kept telling him that he wasn’t a success. The machine kept telling him, “You are what you do and you ain’t doing much.”
So, Suman decided to do something: he made a list on the first day of the New Year. Not resolutions mind you, but a list. He was quite upbeat after making the list because it included everything he thought he wanted to do. And writing them down was the first step towards a new him and fulfilling all the dreams. He was going to learn a new craft, explore the city a little more, get fitter and do so much more.
But all that would start tomorrow since January 1 was almost over and his elaborate list making had taken up most of the day. He kept the list in his drawer and before going to sleep he started watching ‘Analyse This’. And towards the climax something happened. While Dr Ben Sobel was saying, “Who I am, WHO I AM, who am I, who am I is a question for the ages. That’s one we are all searching for, to find out who I am, who’s in there, who wants to come out and say, hey, I’m hungry…”, it hit Suman that he didn’t know who he was. His job didn’t define him. Though it made it happy, it wasn’t who he was. And what if he didn’t have that job one day? Would he still be somebody? What about people who didn’t do anything, did it mean they were nothing? Then he thought, “People may be described as “unproductive” and “inactive”, but they too exist and that by itself is activity. You are active because you are alive. You are breathing. Petting a dog is activity as is watching the sun rise.”
Suman realised he had inadvertently shut down the machine in his head that constantly was putting him down. He was happier than he had ever been before. He had seen the extraordinary in the ordinariness of the daily routine.
He switched off his laptop, got up and tore up the list. He had decided that he didn’t need a special day and a special paper to achieve his goals. He wouldn’t miss the roses for the bush or vice versa. But water the bush and smell the roses too.
Whether you do or don’t do, YOU matter. And those who matter make a difference and so Suman has decided to make a difference. So, what about YOU?