Los Angeles: Singer Chris Brown says he “looked in the mirror and hated the person” he saw, but he is now ready to turn over a new leaf. The “Loyal” hit maker was dumped by his long-term girlfriend Karrueche Tran after she discovered he cheated on her and fathered a 12-month-old baby girl Royalty with their mutual friend Nia Guzman. He posted a photograph of himself on Instagram, and shared an insightful post, reports femalefirst.co.uk.
The 26-year-old star wrote: “I’m Konfuzed, I always thought I knew the concept of love. Fame and Money can get in the way of that. Most of my issues always deal with love and me being in my feelings. Not to mention me being a dog sometimes. “I can’t speak for everyone but I can say that my actions contributed a lot to my karma. Being jealous and angry and controlling. There has been times where I looked in the mirror and hated the person I see (sic).”
Brown, who has spent time in jail and assaulted ex-girlfriend Rihanna in 2009, wants to turn his life and career around. He added: “I talk to god a lot now. He’s given me so much and I feel like I waste his gifts becuz of my impulsive personality. The world is full of negativity and I feel I play a part in it because of the choices I’ve made or mistakes.
“I tend to accept the negative or the riff raff because I know what it’s like to be a young black “n***a” in America. I always see the good in people even when they don’t see it. I love others more than myself at times. “Everything u see on the surface does not reflect what’s inside. This is my white flag. I surrender to life and all its blessings. I refuse to be petty and attention seeking. To know me is to love me. Good Bad UGLY! (sic)”